behind the camera part 2

on one of my earlier post i wrote about my plans of purchasing a camera. then, i was very much into canon s95. i actually thought that i will be buying that unit for sure. but lumix lx5 came along and it is LOVE!

lx5 is hands down winner in every review against s95 and with that i just know that it will be worth buying it. i ordered it online in online shop called kimstore. it was a good decision to do so because it was a smooth transaction and before i knew it i already got my very own lx5! yey! :)

a becky bloomwood moment

i sooo looove to shop! it's one of the things that i really enjoy and sometimes i get a little crazy over clothes, bags and shoes! yes, clothes! yes, shoes! yes, bags! i love them all! :)

last night after work i was on my way home. i just went on my usual route on the way to the terminal that is a series of malls and boy was i in luck because the shops are on sale! SALE! four letter word that make my heart beat a little faster than the usual! haha! i honestly don't have any plans to buy anything but seeing the sale items just makes me happy as a bee! of course i wouldn't let this opportunity pass me by so i head on my favorite shops and look for two of my favorite things, bags and shoes! you couldn't have too much of those..hehe..i bought two bags, a cream colored leather with gold details and a grey hobo one. also bought white and beige flats. i went crazy on the last minute because i also bought two pairs of ray-ban shades! haha! a splurge i can't resist, maybe an impulsive buy but it is so worth it! i got a new wayfarer and aviator pair! i've been eyeing this two for so long and now it's mine! yes!

i went home feeling like becky bloomwood for a bit, but looking on my great finds i just can't help but be happy about it. i purchased them on a discounted price at least, cheaper than how much i could get them on a regular shopping day..hehe..but really, it was a great way to end my week! a bunch of shiny new things to launch next week! yey! :)

so random

i owe my blog a lot of post now but i can't seem to start to write about anything in particular, so i'll be writing about ramdom things instead..hehe..

• i so loooove to read but for the past months i was not able to do so. hmm..maybe i should start to go grab a book later tonight.
• i'm craving for something sweet for like a couple of days now, but i can't seem to find out what i am actually craving for..hehe..a brownie? cake? frappe?
• as i am writing this, it is raining hard outside i could hear it against our office window. 
• yes, i'm at the office right now and yes, i should be working and not writing this post! haha!
• a little bit more than a month and it's christmas time once again! how time flies! before we know it, the brand new year is upon us! :)
• and speaking of christmas, i haven't started my christmas shopping yet! oh no! last year i started it at around october and finished it early december i think. but this year i am so behind schedule! yikes! should start buying gifts on payday! haha!
• last month i was diagnosed with anemia because i was experiencing dizziness for days. right now i don't feel any dizziness anymore! yey! thanks to the prescribed vitamins given to me! totally works! :)
• as i am writing this, i got Tiktok by Kesha playing on the background! love her!
• i miss my high school barkada! it's been like 7 months since i last saw them. been planning for a night out but so far we're not successful. but we'll definitely see each other soon! hopefully! haha!

behind the camera

i miss my old camera. i was a proud owner of a Nikon D60 camera few months back. it was with me for almost 2 years. that was my first major purchase ever! i sold it because i hardly use it anymore, i would want to but it is too heavy and bulky to carry around. though i really enjoyed taking pictures. it gives me that high that i can't explain. i admit that i was really not good at it but i go on taking pictures anyway..hehe..

now i really do miss taking pictures! i am eyeing Canon S95 as of the moment. it is a compact camera that almost works like a dslr. i can't wait to have enough money to actually purchase it, hopefully next month. since it is a lot smaller than my previous camera, i am planning to carry it around as often as i can and take more pictures and post them! i haven't really posted any of my pictures from my old cam, i just don't feel like they are good enough to share to people. but once i got my own S95, i would be taking as many pictures as i can! :)) i can't hardly wait to actually be behind the lenses again!

it's nice to be out

went out last night with my officemates. we went to a place called lime 88. it is a bar/restaurant located in a residential place that made it somewhat hard to find but it was all worth it because the food was great as well as the service. i haven't been out with them so it is nice to spend some time with them aside from the workplace once in a while. we eat, laugh, talk, drink and eat some more until the wee hours of the night. all in all, it was a great way of wrapping up the work week and starting a long weekend.

just another rainy day

it has been raining for days now
the gloomy weather has always find its way to pull my spirits down
i don't know why it just happens all the time
the loneliness is creeping up and down my spine
i feel so alone in a crowded place which is not a good sign
been trying to smile but can't find the reason why should i
seeing him just reminds me a lot
that we cant be a part of something we want
i cant remember how it all start
i could've stop him but i just cant
maybe because i know deep inside
i'm struggling with what i want and my so called pride
i know i cant be the reason to cause that hurt inside
i dont have the courage to go ahead and fight
this is where i turn my back
i cant give what she has to offer
i just cant stand to make anyone suffer
my apologies for all the pain
for all the tears that fell like rain
just like how it fall on my window pane
on one of the many rainy days just like today

what and if

i just saw the movie letters to juliet just now and a line from it caught my attention more than any part of the story.

what and if.
two words as nonthreatening as words come.
but put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life.
"what if?..."

those lines are part of the letter for claire sent by sophie in the movie.

two words that seem to not mean anything, but when put together could just make you think of the what-might-have-been. true. i totally agree to this. life has it's own way of telling us that there is a reason for our past not being part of our present and future but until that day when enlightenment dawns on us we were sometimes faced with the question:"what if?..."

every single life changing decision we had could have resulted and lead us to a completely different place in our lives if we had it other way. so as those small, insignificant details have the same bearing as well. the thing is we always find ourselves bumped and bruised answering the question "what if?". even in the well-thought-of decisions in our lives, when we could actually not ask the question and maybe just start acting on it. why ask when you could actually see for yourself how things would turn out? maybe it's not too late to do so.

but considering those things that can't be changed anymore i think it's best not to ask "what if?" but rather accept the things as they are. it would be useless to cry over spilt milk, right? maybe we could just channel our energies on making things work for us despite how things ended up. here is a chance for us to turn things the other way around, that other way is our way. it could be an epic fail or our biggest success but either way it will be for the best because we took control of the situation and did it the way we want.

"what if?...".

for a while i was like flooded with my own long list of what-might-have-beens. i was pensive. but then i thought that if things didn't happened as they did, i wouldn't be the person i am today. i am not perfect and that's ok. i know that those bad experiences, all the failures, heartaches, disappointments, frustrations although all painful and might left a scar or two, made me feel human and very much grounded. i felt more alive than ever. i'm not masochistic, i don't enjoy pain of course. but it just reminds us that life isn't perfect so do each and everyone of us. i know that my perfectly flawed self is the best version of me and i wouldn't have it any other way.

so the next time i encounter "what if?" i will just read it as two nonthreatening words: what and if.

my first post

my first post, or should i say my brain's first fart.

i've been wanting to create a blog for so long but now was just the time that i actually did it. not sure why but i just got that feeling that maybe this could be a start of something good, if not maybe just a plain brand new start of something.

maybe this could be a perfect venue to go rambling on about ramdom things that i have thought of, read about, watched, heard, seen, tasted, felt and this list could go on and on but basically this is where i could write freely and tell things in and outside my life. it would be fun to back read on my posts after some time. :)