Friday, February 18, 2011

a day like today

today has been weird. maybe it's the unfortunate stomach ache that i had or the painful vaccine shot i had that still hurts. but i guess i know why. deep inside i know why, i just can't get myself to admit it but it is screaming way too loud and i can't shut it out.

i miss him. i miss him everyday. every single day.

i wish i could have him for myself. tell him every little thing that i kept locked deep down. i think i could make him happy and he could make me happy too. but this can't be. it will never be.

i'm struggling to accept the fact that none of those things will ever happen but i can't hide that somehow i was hoping against hope that things would change and smile my way.

what am i thinking? who am i kidding?

today has been weird.

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